Sitting here watching the sailboats go out of the marina, the sun trying to crack thru the haze, I see birds flocking around the empty tables looking for any morsel of nourishment they can find. Peaceful when no one is around, but I know soon it will be bustling with people, adults and kids alike, taking advantage of the beautiful holiday weekend.
Yes, I’m not working today. I had to sit down with myself yesterday and have a serious talk. I have been running myself into the ground with work certifications, extra curricular activities and my businesses at home with no time for myself at all. Looking in the mirror lately is just scary! So I set some time aside to clean the house, it was such a mess. When I was done I took a long, hot bath, went to bed early and promised myself that I had to take care of having a day off at least once a week.
Now unless you know me, you do not know how hard that is to do! I always feel like I have to be doing something, especially for my businesses. A very good and wise friend asked me, “Who has set the deadline on anything for your businesses?” I had to stop and say, well me. Why am I doing this to myself. It is just crazy.
I told myself, well there ARE reasons. I have to make sure I write the blog at least monthly, I have to do a News show at least monthly, I have to get the new Website up, I have to actually finish the 3 DVDs in post-production for TV ArtScapes…..and of course, I have to go to my regular work 50 hours a week! Man, I need to get a life, I thought.
Another very good friend of mine came to my rescue a few weeks ago when I was in meltdown mode. He said, you know, if you put all that energy into the film you want to make, you’d have it done in a year. I thought, about it, and you know, he is so right. But would putting all my other projects on hold for a year feel like I failed? I thought it might but again, there is really no timeline but the one I have set. And my pursuits and energy, while very diverse, have allowed me to realize and create many of my dream projects, but having limited time, exhausts me for sure!
So it’s all about permission. Giving yourself permission to take the road and path you feel the most strongly about. Make the decision and have laser focus on that path. You will accomplish what you need to do, or if you don’t, you may found out you want to change that path or at least find out what NOT to do on the way to that goal.
So give yourself permission to have laser focus. If you have other pursuits, don’t feel like you have failed, they are “on hold” for now. While you go after your dream, and experience life to the fullest! Blessing to all, and my you live life to the fullest!
Love and Light Always!